Taking care of myself is OVERRATED

I have been doing it for the past year. Taking it easy, going with the flow and just enjoying life. I must say that overall it has provided an awesome experience for me in regaining the “live for the moment” feeling. It’s also helped me lose a bit of my somewhat restrictive and controlling Type A personality. However, I am ready to get back to just live life without restrictions. They’re getting in my way 😉

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Starting last March, I was given many directives..

Rest and relax until you know more.

Let your body heal and see if the numbness goes away.

Rest and get your body ready for surgeries.

Let your body and yourself heal from the surgeries.

You can get back to some activity but you need to listen to your body.

Go back to living your life.

So I am able but I am struggling with the balance.

I’ve adjusted over the past few months to a slow but active daytime. While the kids are at school, I try to fit in some activities that are good for me physically and therapeutically as well as some that are fun and social.

I’ve stuck a nice balance but these nighttime plans are bumming me out. I seem to crash at night which is prohibitive to seeing my working friends. Again, I guess my lesson here is patience. But sometimes I just wish I didn’t have to keep learning it.

Monday was just one example of my daily internal struggle.  I played tennis  for about an hour and a half. I had a blast it tired me out.  I came home to take a nap…and hydrate…and lay on the couch.
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I was invited to a friend’s house to watch the Bachelor that night. I don’t even watch the show but wanted to hang with my girlfriends. I felt like I shouldn’t go and that I should listen to my body. My body was telling me to stay on the couch with a big glass of water and an early bed time. I really wanted to ignore my body and feel normal!

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While I felt sad all day about having to stay in and rest, my husband came home and told me to go. He reminded me that I don’t have to stay all night…but I should go since I miss my friends. Considering that he is usually the cautious one, I knew that I should listen to him. He is wonderful and knows that I am working hard at taking care of myself…but also that my friends mean a lot. So off I went to watch the meaningful documentary  Bachelor, with a couple of my besties. The laughter, catching up and relaxing with them while watching junk television was just what I needed.

I need to practice patience and self-care but also need to find ways to nurture myself. Friends and an encouraging husband certainly help me do that!

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2 thoughts on “Taking care of myself is OVERRATED”

  1. You are not alone. I am exhausted by the end of the day too! My couch is always calling my name. I endured the same struggle to enjoy the documentary with friends that you did.

  2. I had to watch Voice first and then the Bachelor after thing. I will go back and watch the finale sometime! I love watching those all important documentaries of human relationships;)

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