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At this point last year, I was out of the hospital and having various appointments to follow up on my fourth stroke. I had reassuring appointments with two doctors but was still having the heaviness in my left arm and leg without an explanation. Those doctors reiterated that I was a complicated case and that it was possible that I would never find out what was causing my symptoms to show up again. I was laying low until my scheduled angiogram on April 7th that I hoped would show insight. Here’s what I was thinking at the time…
“Why won’t my left side come back? I need it to “un-numb.” The frustrating fact of illness is that positive thinking can’t make it better. Working your hardest doesn’t guarantee anything. Isn’t that the kicker in life?? I think so! Generally speaking, hard work and perseverance pays off. That isn’t always the case with illness. I can’t stand that my left side is numb. It is also frustrating that it’s a total subjective feeling at this time. The docs certainly believe me especially given my pass but it’s not obvious…to them, to others and even to the basic medical tests.
I’m not like everyone else; this is a difficult and a tough lesson to learn. Not in the sense that I am comparing my accomplishments or looks or any of the things that women often do (but shouldn’t)…but in that my body isn’t the same as most people. I think I have gone so long feeling well and not having any issues that I started to forget that I’m unique.
I’ve only heard of a few other people in my life who have this feeling of left sided heaviness/numbness/ache. I think many stroke survivors have this feeling yet it’s amplified and renders their limb unusable. Some MS patients have this feeling intermittently.
Then there’s me…CNS Vasculitis patient whose symptoms mirror Moyamoya disease. Still a rare disease and one that every single doctor I meet questions. Yet, I have gone 14 years without major symptoms. So, I started to think I was like everyone else. I dove back into life with a passion to do it all. After all, I seemed fine. I look like everyone else, I have a similar family to many, I enjoy doing the same things as my friends. BUT I AM DIFFERENT. My body reacts to stress, medications, exercise, food, etc. differently then others. My left side goes numb when I do too much.”
I was still resting at this time, so grateful for all the support of meals, cards, etc…and hugging my kids super tight since I didn’t know what the future would hold. What a rollercoaster of emotions!